mentally and physically tired.. :((

working is quite tiring .. but hehee.. can exercise.. and prevent me from keep eating.. but everyday need to keep tinking of what to wear the next day.. no shoes to go with.. no clothes to wear... :(((( haiz.......

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sick and tired with all these.. working soo hard yet get such a response from you. too hard for me to understand and too tiring for me to go and understand...

going through a "test" that is nt being taught .. "teacher" didn tell me anything and expect me to know and score in the "test".. i don need to spoon feed.. just that at least let me understand the topic rather than just push a test to me without knowing what is the topic being tested.

hate ppl testing my memory and observation... i can say i am really bad at these...

just stupid is still in me.

let the nature take the course.. u are the nature k..

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tdy is very slack day .. coz i went to patrol for three hours and went for lunch after that i stood behind the counter doing nth till i dismiss.. hahaha!!!

after that went to bugis with anderson.. and is a very funny thing. before i went to the mrt i lost in tts -.- a very malu thing to say .. haha!!! coz been there on the second day only mahhh .. must forgive arr .. haha!! coz first day my fren brought me and walk but i didn pay attention to where he is going .. thenn tdy i suppose to go to station alone to meet anderson.. but before that i went to toilet. then when i come out from toilet i am soo lost.. lucky i saw one of my colleuge call what han .. ps forget his name .. haha!! i say i am lost i don know how to go to mrt .. haha!! soo he brought me through .. and we talk about sim and his course.. learnt a lot .. and he is soo old that he don like that age.. hahaahaha!!! may be he look skinny and ... hmm don know .. haha!!! just look young ..

after that went bugis to pray pray and after that want to go eat some dessert.. soo went passed bugis street and anderson bought the funny funny ice cream for me .. second time buying ice cream that saleman keep making me laugh.... hahahhahaha!!!! soo funny ... lol .. hahahha!!! AND GUESS WAT!!!! when i walking off with ice cream i saw who... i saw REB!!!!!! hahaha!! soooo qiao !!!!!! i saw her back and her side face.. hahaha!! soo happy to see her .. soo long didn see her le .. hahaha!!! happy happy happyy... and right beside her .. there is a cute gal keep looking at me :$$$ shy shy laaaaa .. she keep looking at me .. with a grin on her face with dimples on her face .. wow suddenly feel that my description still that good .. suddenly rmb my sec sch de eng compo .. hahahaha!!! but sad to say she scared by me .. :((( that is according to reb .. haiz.. after that went to arcade and xiao qi .. no la .. just kidding .. haha!! went arcade to see my bb skill still there or not .. to my surprise .. wow i tink i improved coz of my first round .. is quite high tho is nt my highest score .. hahaha!!! anderson now u know why i say it is nt highest score le rite .. and that machine i didn play before .. haha!!!

well is a happy day ... reb u brighten up my dayXD touched rite .. hahaha!!!

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still the same...

everything will change only that didn change.. try? yes.. yet still the same..

haiz.. forget it.. i think i am just stupid...

anyway .. tmr i start working.. most of my time will be taken up by it.. hope i like the job.. heard that is a very slack job... not a high pay.. 7 per hour and need to deduct cpf and one dollar for donation... honestly speaking i have not enjoy finish.. those places that i wanted to go .. i haven go.. lucky my favour place i went.. which is ehub :) don know why .. went there with anderson.. and met reb over there when playing pool. after that went down to amk to continue playing..

but blading, and many more i haven gone due to no one acc me :( and no time anymore..

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rainie and love:)

hahaha!!! tdy didn watch much of rainie video because i am busying helping my sis to type her things.. thenn i also busy sleeping and checking result.. need to apply for smu.. haven do soo.. shall get reb and jo to do it tgt as we promised. haha!!! hope they are free Okieee.. hahaha!!

tmr going down for interview. is a outbound call centre.. don know how isit.. the pay isn that high .. hope xh can get the starhub job for us fast.. soo i can work with reb.

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haha!! i watched rainie yang de video and realised her perception is really really really very realistic.. and her thinking is soo unique and soo positive.. and i watched the show that saying her background story.. i am so stunned by her story.. is soo diff from what we normal see her.. rainie yang jia you:) i believe u will have a bright future.. :) hahaha!!!

and she mentioned something which i find it very interesting. she said something like that " the person who hurt you the most might not actually the person you love the most. is just that that person is bad person. so don be afraid to go and accept the next guy. if you afraid then that guy is so sway coz that guy might be a better guy who can dote you more and love you more."
- think carefully whether you really sad because you love him and lose him or just sad that you got hurt by him. :) ermm i don know what i am saying .. but i somehow got what she meant.. well... you guys can go and analyse:)

rainie love

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well.. haiz.. no job very jia lat.. my mother soo disappointed in me that i didn have a job.. haiz.. isit my fault? i did go and search.. just that i search in the way that nt suggested by them.. that time they ask me to search through internet. well i did that .. now they ask me to search through newspaper.. is like what the hell la!! that time i serach through newspaper they ask me to serach through internet. now i search through internet they ask me to search through newspaper.. what they want sia.. she also know find job nt easy that time she also a few months cannot find job.. haiz.. as if i want.. i sent alot to agency yet need to wait for them to get back to me one mahhhh ...


and tdy i went to bugis with reb after ps by anderson.. and i bought two shoes i haven show her any of the shoes she jiu give me black face as if i am in deep shit wrong.. my shoes spoilt i bought and yes is my wrong to buy two .. but job isn my fault!!! i also want to have a job. yea lah i at this house is a freaking useless person la ... wat only know how to spend donknow how to earn.. die faster also nvm one la ... fucking angry now .. like suddenly someone angry about me when i got no preparation ... and pass few days i stay at home to send resume no call of coz stay at home la .. and newspaper don have of coz didn go for interview.. then now go out play and buy two tings she also like that .. pls la ... from the day after exam till tdy i only buy that two shoes... i didn buy clothes, i didn buy bag, i only eat and play pool and bowling .. arggggg stupid agency !!! faker ..

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ah ha.. today went out to interview .. hmmm probably i cannot get the job. coz no experience. :( nvm .. after that went out to city and shopped.. shoppping without money haiz.. and ate alot of tings.. haha!!






hahha!!! since ly taught me how to fully utilized my phone i found it easier to transferring photos and songs from computer to phone and phone to computer XD hahahhaa!!!! thank you you :) hahaha!!!!

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haiz.. tdy i went for ber de bday celebration.. but on the way to the sem park.. i lost my mp3 :(((((( haiz.. once again i lost one ele device.. haiz.. i should be scolded.. haiz.. i got nth to say about myself... stupid me :(

and i can prove to myself i finally bai tou something... despite how close ... happy :))

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wohooooo ... ytd went to ms to have some massage.. hahaha!! erm.. is quite exp but is relaxing.. they know all ur weakness.. for mine is i don have enough sleep and my neck is very tight.. haha!! is not that pain but when she press on my third toe... ohh my godddd.. it really pain :( hahaha!! but after that i feel like sleeping.. but at night i could sleep well tho i have a massage :( i guess is their tea fault. they serve a nice tea but it make me cannot have a good sleep at night :(((

went to kenko for a 30 mins massage cost me $40.60.. worth it ? i shall say hmm my first time trying.. i tink is not bad.. not really a wow.. but still can go for it .. just not too often.. haha!! coz we are not rich tai tai .. hahaha!!! if i manage to find a cheaper one.. i will go for it :) just htat they don serve me tea will do XD hahahha!!!

raining now.. i wanted to go out to do some printing .. but it seems i have to delay it .. tmr going for an interview.. hope i can get a job fast :) hahaha!!!

and tdy is 4m .. h4matu :) hahahaha!!!

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hmm today went for interview for one job.. but hmmm i don know should i want it or not.. coz of the timing, and the workplace. haiz.. i also donknow ..

tdy went to tampines to register an agency.. then went down to kallang for interview.. hmm the job haiz.. i don know .. shall continue to look for other job lo.. haiz..

after that went to suntec with mok for the it show.. hmm he wanted to buy something yet his fren tell him not to .. haha!!

job job come come .. haiz..

Labels: job where are u

HAHAAH!!! after soo long staying at home.. tdy finally i went out for the whole day .. hahahha!!!! went to ms cheong house and have some eating .. hahahaa!! i brought my fried rice.. hmmm tdy i admit i ate alot.. hahaha!!! let me list out some:
1. some dessert- 1 ang ku kway
2. lunch (fried rice, some mock meat, long bean)
3. drinks - green tea and some wine which make me headache after drinking .. hahaha!!! at first ms cheong say go with the lunch soo i have one small cup.. thenn half way eating i felt soo thirsty, soo i drink the wine like plain water.. i forget that is wine.. all my god.. when i realise it is wine, i slow down yet too long .. hahaha!!! i have headache and felt my face very warm.. soo i stop. but ms cheong wanted to pour finish the wine soo she pour into mine cup... ohh my god.. but in the end i didn finish the wine coz i know i cannot make it le.. hahahhaa!!! otherwise i will vomit..
4. i have some CHEESE CAKE after that when watching movie in ms choeng house.. hahaha!!
5. after cake i have ice cream (ben and jerry) goshhhh soo fattening rite.. but well no choice.. haha!! and yl say my cheek like somehow look higher tdy.. hmmm i guess i turn fat lo...
6. thennnn green tea continue .......

after the movie which is a failure, ms cheong admitted too.. coz is boring .. hahhaa!!! thenn we went to have a walk .. the place is soo windy .. and the houses there are soo nice is like everyone's dream house there..........

after that we went back to her house and have some chat.. when her husband come back with her children.. hahaha!! her youngest kid very cute!!!! i wanted to play with her.. but she just ignored me..:( soo hurting .. haha!! but i managed to hug and carry her .. hahahhahaha!!! she is soooo cuteeeeee... hahahahhahahahhaa!!!! yl too some photo of her .. hmmm refer to my facebook when he upload :) hahaha!!

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what is next? haiz.. there are too many sad things happening around me today and recently... fake or real, willing or unwilling, can be solve or cannot be solve.

freaking down now!!! my sis de car accident thing come back and hunt us again .. wtf.. thought things have been settle .. coz it has been one year le .. yet tdy the letter come again saying they found witness. i don know how my sis going to settle.. make sure this incident teach her to drive carefully when she got her own car. i don wan to hear anymore this cases!!!

and i don understand why ppl can act soo well.. faker!!!! don act as if u are being force. no one can force u .. pls .. u have a choice. is because u want to be with it then u go with themm.. saying bad things about them yet can be soo happy with them.. looking around for ppl to cheng yao? pls la .. f off la .. stop actting this way to make us hate u more.. soo er xin!!

cannot find a job and my money keep flowing out.. become poorer de me make me feel i am such an asshole... there are thousand of jobs out there.. i jsut don have the feel for each job.. sale? admin? call centre? whyyyyyy... this world is soo competitive..

what's more to come? bad things one by one come and hit me. or want to be at one shot? make me no space to breathe.....

what is life?

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cruel temptation is so nice!!!! especially the song- i cannot forgive.. haha!!!

無法饒恕/車秀晶

為什麼你要遇見我 為什麼你帶給我的全是傷痛
wae neo neun na leul man na seo wae na leul a peu ge man hae
我為你付出了所有 但為什麼你回報給我的全是眼淚
nae mo deun geol da ju neun de wae nal ul li ni
因為你傷害了我 所以我要重生
ni ga na leul sang cheo jun man keum da si dol lyeo jul geo ya
不是叫我壞女人
na bbeun yeo ja la go ha ji ma
因為你讓人無法饒恕
yong seo mos hae

殘忍的緣分像愛一般
jan in han in yeo neun sa lang ga ta
那不是屬於我們的未來之路 有時這段路會讓我們無法刹車
gi li a nin de ga da ga meom chul su neun eob seo
如果愛情結束之時會感到後悔
sa lang ggeu te hu hoe ga cha ja o myeon
那愛情給我們的就只有怨恨
bi lo so nam neun geon mi um bbun

當愛情需要哀求時
sa lang hae dal lan ae wo neun an hae
那原來的那顆心已經漸行漸遠 我討厭那冰冷的目光
ma eu mi ddeo nan cha di chan nun bi chi si lheo seo
被那顆心牽引的你
geu ma eu mi ggeul li neun geu go sen
還會遇上另一段誘惑
ddo da leun yu hog is seul te ni

愛是什麼 它會讓人窒息
sa lang i mwon de sum ju gyeo ga myeo
難道我還曾經想過抓住 那個變化莫測的你嗎
byeo nhae ga neun neol jab go si peo sseul gga

為什麼你要遇見我 為什麼你帶給我的全是傷痛
wae neo neun na leul man na seo wae na leul a peu ge man hae
我為你付出了所有 但為什麼你回報給我的全是眼淚
nae mo deun geol da ju neun de wae nal ul li ni
因為你傷害了我 所以我要重生
na neo leul yong seo hae ya man da si u seul su iss na
不是叫我壞女人
na bbeun yeo ja la go ha ji ma
因為你讓人無法饒恕
yong seo mos hae

愛是什麼 它會讓人窒息
sa lang i mwon de sum ju gyeo ga myeo
難道我還曾經想過抓住 那個變化莫測的你嗎
byeo nhae ga neun neol jab go si peo sseul gga

為什麼你不是我 為什麼你不是我討厭的人
wae neo neun nae ga a nin ji wae neon nae ga si lgeun geon ji
我為你付出了所有 但什麼你回報給我的全是眼淚
nae mo deun geol da ju neun de wae nal ul li ni
因為你傷害了我 所以我要報復
ni ga na leul sang cheo jun man keum da si dol lyeo jul geo ya
不要叫我壞女人
na bbeun yeo ja la go ha ji ma

en cai xiao jie .. hahahha!!!!

tdy went to celebrate bday with hy. my god la .. i am freaking late. i woke up at 11 and my fren sms night told me to meet me at 1045 at chinatown.. how great hor. dots... end up i meet the bday gal who is also late to go down tgt. hahaha!!!

haiz.. this yr very jia lat. coz alot of my frens all 21 need to buy present for them. haiz.. coming up three of them. one 20 one. haiz.. sian.. going to broke liao ... i need job!!! hopefully by tmr i can find one .. haha!!!

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WAHAHAHHA!!!! past three days went to chalet.... have alot of fun!!!!! and i learnt how to play majong!!! chiong majong for two nights- da tong xiao ma jiang.. hahaha!!!!

and thanks li ling mama, xing yi, and the rest who help out in cooking for my dinner.. very nice:))))) hahaha!!!! i will miss these days.. hope we can have it again :)))

today after chalet i went home to change and then go out with zer then after that with anderson.. it is a long and tiring day... went to bugis with zer and eat and shop a bit. have no feeling for shopping... after that i acc him to bukit batok. on the way keep dosing off. esp when the way to bishan from batok. i stood and dose off. see how tired i am. and i don wan to contiune to embarrasse myself, soo i get a seat to sit down and sleep. haha!!! soo tired.. when i reached bishan one hour earlier. i decided to go lib and continue to sleep. -.- haha!!! thenn eat dinner again and then home sweet sweet. i missed my qi zi de you huo lorr.. :(((

nw need to help my sis to do things le .. ltr i shall go back to sleep.. :)))

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