i choose not to tell you coz i don wan all these to happen. tried to minimize it when u asked me but it seems like it is still that big impact to u. may be all this to u is bullshitting. but whatever it is, i think no matter what path i chose. the result will still be same- not being able to be a good fren of urs. take ur time to cool down and think. i will also used this time to think and i do try to come to a conclusion. however, it still need to see ur actions.
feel free to hate me. feel free to be alone. it is ur own choice after all. i wont bother to explain for myself anymore. whatever person i am in ur mind just leave it. coz no point changing it when it alr in ur mind.
don tell me u understand me too well, can read my action too well. coz u don know me well. if u were to know me well, u should know what i want. one very simple example, when i need someone to console u wont be pouring wet blanket! that is ur style may be. but coz u don know me, that is why u don know what is not my style!
continue to give me a sacastic laugh on what i am saying now. i admit i have nvr know u well!! everything u kept to urself, that is why i nvr know what u are saying!!! having a poor memory of me always face u testing on my memory!!! may be i am not that xi xing like u but this is me! yea u know me well u should know. don always come to a conclusion when u don know everything! anaylsing it in ur heart, i will nvr know what u are thinking!!! want me to put myself in ur shoes and think for u ? come on let me understand what u are thinking first before asking me to think for u!! yea u are human with feeling i am human with brain! not like u !! go by feeling!! but i go by thinking!! i am sure u nvr know all these!
haiz shuan le..
it seems everything i did is like hurting people, i don know what to do but to focus on my studies and do not want to bother all these. books are dead, whatever i did to them the words still there, the knowledge that it wants to give me is still there. books wont talk back to u when u don wan to take in, misunderstand it. talking to books will make me feel better bahh.. zhou yi bu shuan yi bu. everything alr fix le.
because of ur action make me soo moody. wanted to appreciate the friendship but it seems we can never go back.
sorry readers, if u don understand what i am saying, who i am referring to. don try to go understand, don try to go and guess, don try to ask me. coz this message is only for that person who understand it. provided the person will read it.
lastly,
when i really need u to be there and solve problem with me, it seems like a joke to u. nvr being serious for my problem until i say so. however, hope my decision wont make me regret in future.
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